I envy U

You and your magnetic (nearly flawless) charm that works instantly to both sexes...
You and your handy tools that does magic in turning rags to riches...
You and your childlike eyes and devilish smile that hold the power to melt the coldest mountain...
You and your bravery and confidence in stealing those things, and those hearts...
You and your youth, flexibility, independency, vulnerability, and secrecy...
You, you, and you...
It surprises me that you even bother to lean yourself on me...
even adore me...
while the whole universe have their eyes caught on you...

You might (or might not) know that you provide me despair,
from all those staring and admiring eyes...
I cannot compete with you...though I sometimes sense that you see me as one
There is no way I can possibly hide my pride realizing your insecurity for my being a threat to such a fine creature...

I envy you, my dear...
Why do we have to placed in a situation where love and hate collides?

getaway

Eyes closed. In silence. Looking back over the dimension of time. Separating my spirit away from the flesh. Reaching beyond the possibles. Searching the losts and founds in a cosmic astral travel...
Seeking for my regrets, and allow forgiveness to step in. Browse in the faces caught in hatred, and mercy them. Letting my rockbottom past mistakes be a lesson in the future.
Now, it is time to soothe myself with sweet juicy victorious glory I've once achieved...and let them be my guidance whenever I feel trembled.

Affirmation-Affirmation-Affirmation. Ha-Ha. Speaking is easy, but reality is plastic beauty.

I never knew that making peace with myself can be tremendously hard. Life has already made complicated, and I know I should not make a labirynth out of it. All those restless evenings, those negativism, those things I shoulda, woulda done, yet resulting none.

However, inevitably, the travel proceeds...