it went well after all... :)

These few days were quite frustrating. I felt so gloomy and gray. There's no explanation for that. It's just my unstable me emerging from underneath my darkest soul. It gets in my nerves once in a while. No medicine can cure that 'something wrong-but i dunno whatta do with it'. There are few paranoias, about few things. But, somehow...when I almost came to my limit, there's a helping hand out of nowhere. Mysteriously, whwn I was a centimetre away from losing my grip, a door opens...and another...and another...And I think to myself "What a wonderful world."

How mysterious and unpredictable life goes. When I look around, I don't see an ant farm on which each soul is the owner's. I see that every soul has their own will, spirit, and faith to make way for their own future. Forgiving does not mean losing, starting from nothing does not mean embarassing. I believe that every person is a habitual creature. I am one of them who fears for change. Changes, frequently frightens me. I've tried, but I guess I haven't tried hard enough. For I have stepped on the same path I went through moments ago. I share no denial in my confession. I realize that every single thing has its price, and I am finding my path amidst the vivid reality.

There's a quote I read: "When you're down on your knees, be thankful for the things that you dont want...and not getting." It's really important to keep my spirit above the ground, even though there were (and there will be) rougher moments to come. Bad and good, Yin and Yang, David and Goliath...that's life. Simply cheer the upcoming, and be afraid not.

Like a rollercoaster...sometimes you go up, so high, euphoric, ecstasy...
yett, inevitably, at times, you fall down, 'til it hits the ground, no mercy...
Truly, c'est la vie.