You'll never know...

"Loe tuh alpukat..Gw semangka..D**** melon. M*** pepaya. Ngerujak yuuuk!Huahahaha..."

You will never know how much a person means until that person is not there beside you anymore.

That is exactly what I felt when one of my precious loved ones didn't want to consider me as a friend no more. I felt so low. When I thought I had it all figured out, suddenly came a thunder that ruined them altogether at once. I understand that apart of this was caused by my own foolishness (which I still regret till this very second), but I believe that a bond needs compromises as well.

I've learned my lesson...and I apologize for breaking my promise, for disappointing you, for being ignorant & selfish, for making white lies so everyone would be happy (which apparently made things worse in the end!).

Gosh, (even though this sounds like the cheesiest thing, but...)I love you too dearly...I wish you'd forgive me. I wish we could start over.

If a 'sorry' cant mend what we had, then...we'll just have to get by and start living like strangers.

(which would be the last thing I want to do, ever in my life...)