affirmation of a limbo situation

Like a rollercoster ride...nothing shall remain to be positioned at the very top of everything for good. There will definitely times to fall and break down. As long as we are still breathing and continuously searching for the best we can obtain. Again, there's nothing called BesT for humans anyhow since man is a fool, when it's hot, he wants it cool, when it's cool, he wants it hot...he always wants what he has not.

We try as hard as possible to keep our lives balanced, though without dynamics life would might be so dull. Still figuring out, still attempting to get a grip of the ups and downs. Never felt totally secured, but I'm hangin' there. I believe that there is no such thing as coincidence. I have faith that everything happens for a reason. Questions unanswered...maybe they're better left out to be a mystery...The flowing chemistry, why does it have to be occupied rather than be enjoyed?

Every one has untold secrets...every one has a past...There are hurtful truths, buried pains, unerasable tint inside a blackbook, but then, we don't live for the past, we live for the future. And that's all what matters, right?

...One step at a time...

Taking everything bit by bit...brick by brick...step by step...
There is no need to be in a rush...enjoy every moment...cherish every smile...embrace every laughter...
We're still searching for answers for those questions and juggling with our fears and undescribable hopes...
I like looking at your wide set of eyes, 'cause there...I can see the warmth and comfort you provide for me...
I enjoy spending time with you, although it may take some time to know you a little bit better...
We are souls granting for mates to share our tears of grieve and joy, as life has set us together...
Whatever we shall become....
We ARE two human beings who have the freedom to decide...

Happy Birthday to Me!

One more day to end my 23rd year of living...and the last digit 'll be added by one more. Phew...whatta journey...It seemed like yesterday when I wore my grey&white uniform (hehehe..too hiperbolic ya?!). Mmmm, all things I've gone through have definitely taught me not to be dependent to others, neither does trusting your love ones too much. I also learned that white lies are (ok...) made for protecting one's feelings, but no matter how painful the truth may become, white lies are not an option to be taken. Been there, done that. It sucks having all the people you put your trust on make a scheme in the name of 'not getting anyone hurt'. Once a lie, stays a lie. I was madly disappointed at first, but then I realize that it might be wiser to forgive, forget, and start anew. Nobody lives a life without any obstacles running their way. I must say how grateful I am for standing exactly on the spot where I am right now, and when the truth was revealed when I enter my 22 years of age, the universe was really brought down to my knees. It was one of the turning points to grow up for me. Yet I may not be called as 100% mature or whatsoever, I'd have to say that it's all a process to be better than before. I'm no saint, that's for sure. But , sometimes, I find it hard to say No (not to drugs, d'oh!) to people just cuz I wanna please them. So much for being altruistic, I didn't even realize that there are times when they took me for granted!Geez...sometimes I wanna join a community of good girls turn bad! hehehe...but life's shitty enough to be more complicated than it is now. So...yeah...I've broken some rules, but I know when to stop, so I guess being bad a li'l won't hurt much for this good girl, ryte?

My wish list for the new age:
1. a settled income...not having to drag myself outta bed for teaching on weekends
2. keep my feet on the ground...no more daydreaming and disorientation (so, no more lost of track on the road!)
3. the ability to wake up earlier&chill for another Monday
4. upgrade my memory capacity!
5. be grateful for every O2 inhaled in all circumstances
6. accept the truth and live with it
7. be more powerful against all pleads
8. make peace with my in-laws
9. lose the last few pounds
10.find my soulmate

24 is only a few hours from now...hope I'll get my wishes allrite :)

A quote frm Ms. Hilton

Every woman should have four pets in her life. A mink in her closet, a jaguar in her closet, a tiger in bed, and a jackass who pays for everything. *Paris Hilton*

This quote comes from a girl who was born with a silver spoon on her mouth. No wonder 'eh? She can get all those at once in a blink of an eye. I'd say "Yea!" if you ARE one of the Hilton Kingdom's heiress who does shopping for killing time at noon, considers cameo-acting as working, and clubbing as a calorie burner. Whoa, whatta life! Not to mention a series of scandalious stories with (still queueing up til now) good looking fellas :p and those catfights with other youthful precious ones.

Imagine living one day in her shoes. Betcha painful, especially in those stilettos and paparazzis stalking from every angle. However, she was born together with a supasta charisma which enables her to dazzle the sight of millions of watchers. Must be dead tiring to keep up billions of dollars attitude flawlessly...and still get bitched and labeled as "Crumbs from Yesterday's Cheesecake". Yikes!

She might not enjoy her 8 hours beauty sleep (unlike some of us who have the privilege for a 9 hours daily sleep :)), unavailable for slouching on the couch and set up a grouchy face (like a normal-exhausted-human being), or even move 1o metres distant without her pics taken. I feel sorry for this girl whose face is all over beauty and fashion magazine for not having a quality time for herself cuz the public wants to knooooow aja...

I used to drool for Nicky's sister cuz she seemed to have the universe turning on the palm of her hands, but then , I realise that she's just a typical gal, indifferent than other bubbly, unstable Venus creatures. She has her strength and weaknesses as we all do. It's just that she got all the exposures a little bit too much...In all, she's one of those people who adds colour to average people's life, ain't she?

It's only Paris, the States, and Indo against the world...